From my journal: October 28, 2008 9:30 pm
Today is Tuesday. I am being referred to a Nephrologist. The diagnosis – Stage 4 Renal Failure.
The doctor will try to keep me as healthy as possible until my kidney transplant. She guesses I have 5 years or less until I will need a new kidney.
Will I die of kidney failure like my sister did at age 35? What will my family do? I have a lot of things that I want to do. Will I even feel well enough to do them? I feel tired.
October 29, 2008 3:00am
I am awakened by my own tears. As I sit on the side of the bed, I start to remember the dream I was having. It was a strange dream. One of those dreams that begins as a memory of a real event but morphs into something different.
It began with a memory of a little girl I had seen in a store. She was shopping with her grandmother. When the cashier asked “How are you today sweetheart?”, the little girl responded, “I’m blessed, thank-you”. In my dream the scene started out with the cashier and the little girl, but then morphed into me being the little girl and God being the cashier.
“How are you today, sweetheart?” asked God.
“I’m blessed, thank-you”, I responded.
I’m blessed. I am so blessed. I am blessed beyond anything I could ever have imagined. He is with me. He cares about me. I am blessed.
The story continues. . .
Well, I wonder if I am going to cry every time I read these posts! Not to fear I will still read them all!